So, it has been awhile. I had so many things I wanted to talk about, but I lost my password to this account, my phone died, and numerous other things in between managed to discourage me from writing all together.
It's 10:53 PM on 1/27/2017. For some reason I'm incredibly tired and emotionally exhausted. I didn't do anything in particular that would normally make feel this way. Maybe, it's almost the time of the month again. Maybe, things have just bottled up to the point where I feel the need to release everything.
Nothing is going right. Everything is so confusing and stagnant at the same time. I'm looking for something, and I know that no matter how much I search, I won't find it. I need something that could sooth this aching heart, but what will help it? I've felt this feeling so many times and every time, I find myself creating a cookie cutter answer to all the questions I've had when I slightly feel better. It's this constant existential struggle combined with this abnormal physical and societal chaos. Maybe, the answer is right here in me, and I am looking straight at with blissful ignorance. Hopefully, there will be a time I will be able to see it and acknowledge it.
